deathnote6969

when all you see in the would is the negative the sadness the abuse the hate the loneliness when it becomes to much for you to handle but you have no idea where to find help when you lose everyone who made your life worth living when everyday you hear people saying you have no idea what its like to be me you think to your self do you even know what its like to be yourself and how can you say that because every one is different you have no idea what people go through when your happiness only lasts for a couple hours but even then its all fake when people hate you for things that they have caused when you only want to be gone when you

as the bad memories fade what remains clear your faces stay clear when ever i think about you i miss you if i had a choice i would steel you all away

the confusion haunts your mind starving your thoughts and killing your ideas you just want to unload all of it but you cant get it out the people that annoy you, you just want to put them to sleep (people might now who i am talking about his name starts with C) the cloud of confusion changes the  way you see the world you dont know what you want anymore

cant hold them back anymore let the tears fall like rain let the black void consume me let the tides of the black sea eat away at my coffin until my bones turn to ash let the treasure trove of memories be stolen away i now relize even if you give everything away only the ones who love you will give something back but tonight i get to add another silver bar to my collection just to see tomorrow i need to pay another one......

I lay here thinking I lay here linking storys together I lay here turning stories into the truth and the truth into reasons I lay her making reasons into doubts about myself I lay here with a cloud over my head I lay here soaking in my own blood I lay here trying to get back some of what I lost I lay here trying to figure out what I did I lay here not knowing what to do I lay here alone I lay here dying

You can hold a knife to my throwt You can put a gun to my head You can inject me with poison You can set me on fire   You can blow me up You can drown me You can run me over You can take the blood from my body You can electrocute me You can beat me to death You can give me a virus or a diseas You can freeze me You can chop me up You can feed me to animals However none of these hurts as much as... dying of a broken heart

the cold blade slips through your ribs cutting through all your happyness sadness infects the wound letting the poisens flow through your blood its leaks into your mind and eats away all the good things killing anything and everything its jumps into your eyes but only finds one Thing the one thing that the mind has been thinking about. . . . . . . the virus knows that there is no point to living in a body and mind That is already dead

slipping when your life seems to hang by a thread when your hole life depends on one moment and you make the wrong choice when the only thing you want is to please the ones you love and you cant when the black hole in your mind sucks all the happiness from in you when you realize every thing that you were taught is a lie when the only thing you want is it all to be over when the most thing you want is just to be truly happy again when you finally get what you want but the cost is to great when you learn that happiness does not come without sorrow when you finally realize this............ you know you are slipping

i will always be there when you need me i will never leave you my feelings will never fade i will never forget you i promiss to always talk to you i always want to be with you i always want to cuddle with you there is nothing more that i could ever want besides you your perfect to me in every way if i had a choice and there was only one person i could have to live it would be you you make me happy and i hope i will always  make you happy

the ravines cries and the sailors die the ship leaks and the wife weeps the cannons roars and the blood pours the treasure sinks and the captains drink the firing shoots end and the ship wreck roots